Bad Habits

I have this bad habit of
getting close to people and thinking
that they r always going to be
by my side; but eventually they
always leave.

I have this bad habit of
loving people a little too much, when
they don't even love me back,
and when they leave me my heart
feels like someone threw it
from the sky

I have this bad habit of
caring for people, when they don't even care
about me at all. Perhaps, if they
saw through my eyes they'll see the
scars I have deep down inside.

I m tired. I'm tired. I'm tired.
I wish feelings didn't exist.
why do feelings exist anyways?
I always fall for everything and let
it destroy me. It's my fault after all,
but I still have hope that one day I find
a person that shares the same bad habits as me.